I am Logan’s mom. Logan died at the age of 19 from a truck crash less than a half mile from home July 22, 2016. He was my only child. This blog is dedicated to Logan and tells the story of my life-long grief journey. I learned after Logan’s death there is no way to escape the agony and utter loss of his absence. There is no gentle, easy road. I figured out early on if I am to survive and eventually thrive, I have to walk the journey, breath by breath, then step by step. Moving forward more than backward, but moving. I hope my writings may help others who wake up in middle of the night drenched in sweat from a horrific dream trying to find someone out there who understands a mother’s worst nightmare. I have had to face the nightmare squarely between the eyes and stumble on. I am carrying on the best I know how. There is hope in what feels like an utterly hopeless situation. But the hope is different. Everything is different. Welcome to …. in Logan’s shoes… a mother’s grief journey.